Someone needs to wire my jaw shut

My weight fluctuation is reaching an all time level of insanity. I weighed 10 lbs less than I do today...2 days ago...The day before that, I weighed 7 lbs more. For the sake of creating an example, let's say I weighed 117 (LOL) on Saturday. And then I weighed 110 on Sunday. And today, I weigh 120.

Now I think it's safe to say we know those numbers aren't my actual weight, unless we're measuring in stones. ;-) You get the idea, though. What is wrong with me?

I was bloated the day I weighed "117." I ate what I was supposed to and worked out, and I was "down" 7 lbs the next day. Then I wasn't feeling well and I ate junk, and now I'm "up" 10 lbs from 2 days ago? Impossible.

I'm bloated for multiple reasons, and I feel fat and gross which is never makes me feel great and healthy, but enough is enough. I've been on a plateau for so long, all I do is gain and re-lose the same weight over and over again.

I'm up from the last time I saw my lap band surgeon, and I don't want to go back until I'm down to where I was then. I know I need a fill, and I'm going to make an appointment with my surgeon in MA, even though it's a giant hassle. Until I find a new MD in NH, I need to go somewhere. I have this great tool,and I haven't had a fill in close to a year - it's time I used this tool again.

I know I can handle today, so for today, I'm going to increase my water intake, reduce my sodium intake, make healthy, well balanced choices, and I'm going to make time to exercise.

I feel so much better about myself when I feel healthier - why would I ever want to feel anything other than that?